Monday, January 11, 2010 ♥
♥ 1:47 AM
my head is hurting again.
i'm afraid.
afraid that mig is back.
i remembered no matter how painful it was.
i could lie on you.
place my head right into your arms.
and baby will tell me everything's okay.
i want to stop thinking about so many things.
i dont want to get agitated like last night.
my head feels like it's rupturing.
my heart is yearning for baby.
will you baby, still be there for me.
and tell me everything's ok.
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♥ 1:44 AM
baby. i miss you.
i really need you in my life.
i miss your scent.
i miss your scent so much.
will you still let me hug u.
Sunday, January 10, 2010 ♥
♥ 7:25 AM
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
I HATE GOING TO SCH WHEN I'M NOT OKAY.
I HATE TO FEIGN I'M OKAY WHEN I'M NOT.
FUCK IT.
Saturday, January 9, 2010 ♥
♥ 9:10 AM
If one day you feel like crying, call me.
i cant promise i'll make you feel better. but i'll give you a really comforting hug.
i'll tear with you.
If one day, you want to run away. dont leave me alone here.
bring me along with you.
But if one day you call and there is no answer, come fast to find me.
perhaps i need you then.
Perhaps love is like a butterfly.
The more i try to chase it, the more it will try to fly away.
Perhaps if i just like this butterfly fly , it might come back to me when i least expect it.
mjj, come back for me.
i love you.
i need you.
i love you.
i need you.
show me the way.
i want to hold your hands. over the many obstacles.
till the end of time.
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♥ 4:27 AM
it is almost a day. i wonder how you are.
i m worried about you. i wonder how you are doing.
that time u were really upset and went sitting at the playground.
i'm glad i turned back to find you.
you asked me to leave but i dont want.
baby, it's still vividly on my mind.
i was really happy to be able to find you.
we hugged at the void deck.
i knew from that time, i want to protect you. i dont want to make you upset anymore.
the hug seemed like ytd. e smell on your body. i can still remember vividly.
that was a simple hug. just a simple hug. but it makes me misss you even more.
now.
i hope you are doing fine.
i want to talk to you.
i'm afraid i'll make you upset again.
i know you need a break.
baby, i need you. i really need you.
honey loves mjj.
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♥ 2:31 AM
i want to msg you.
i want to talk to you.
i want to ask how are you, have you eaten?
sigh. dear, just how are you?
are you still angry with me for saying i dont have feelings for you.
the truth is i do.
the feeling is so strong, it is never going to change.
dear.
if only you are seeing all these.
if only.
hear me out.
Friday, January 8, 2010 ♥
♥ 11:13 PM
have been looking at her pictures all day.
i appeared in many of her photos.
in many of them, my smiles were really nice.
i remembered how b told me she liked me to smile. she likes to see my smile. and wants me to be happy.
perhaps sometimes, when the person is around us we humans always dont cherish it from the bottom of our hearts. but when the person is gone, we'll start to realise actually that person has already been too involved in our lives and how much we cant do without the person right now.
bee. i love you.
iloveyou.